I’ve always been a heavy drinker. I drink because i love meeting new people. I like my hands working under the table holding and rubbing what’s inside their pants. I like kissing in the washroom. Scouting is so much thrill to me. I like when they mash my boobs with my jacket to cover it. I like staring at them and they stare back with a sexy face. I totally love having sex with strangers. I don’t really mind if i don’t even get their names.
Until i met G. He’s a typical guy working as a call center representative. He’s not a head-turner nor panty-dropper. But he’s got this extra something that made me notice him. He asked me about my ring. And that’s where our short-term fairytale started.
We went on our first date. Of course it was me who asked him because he seem like a nerd. Haha. But that was proly the reason why he got me very interested towards him. I wanna know how nerdy persons turn into monsters in bed. LOL
On our second date, he asked me to come to his house. He and his Mom prepared something for me for dinner. He asked me to stay over night. I was thinking his mom wouldnt like it but I stayed anyway. Our conversation become nasty. Then he touch my back. He was trembling badly. He said he was ambivalent. Oh i forgot, he’s a psych major! All of a sudden i was the one who’s shaking. That very moment i swear i would exchange anything for beer! I need alcohol cause i dont really know what to do when im sober. I had difficulty in breathing and that’s when he stopped. That night ended with a kiss.
We went on our third date, fourth, fifth .. We became like fuck buddies except that he wouldnt penetrate me. However he helped me do it without being drunk. He wouldnt allow me even for just one bottle before i suck him. He said that it is best experienced when sober. Because all your senses can feel. Basically it run for three months.
Then i woke up one day realizing that he’s being unfair. And that’s not what i want. I want a relationship with intimacy, passion and commitment. And he can’t give it to me. Left a message on my email then gone. :’(
Recently, one of my teamates’ Samsung Galaxy Tab got stolen in the production floor. And it’s just so aggravating knowing that whoever stole it has probably went to the casino or got drunk like hell or simply went to Greenhills and got a new iphone 4s. What made it more frustrating is that Convergys’ security sucks that there is no single camera inside the production floor. No doubt she was not the first to report a stolen phone. Poor agents lost their phones and never got it back simply because cvg security sucks!
Oh yeah! Convergys is number 1 in the call center industry, at least that’s what they claim. But what do i get out of it? Toxic account, bitchy superiors, untimely and low salary that demands too much from me. I mean, what the fuck! Pardon my french. I can’t even imagine that I’ve always looked up to this company. I can’t find any motivation at all. I come to work, i log in, and i watch as the hand of the clock goes round and round, speeding up and slowing down. It’s the period where every minute, second and hour of my life is extremely critical because i might just burnt out and get the fuckin out of my mind.
The fuck buddy is a modern phenomenon. The first requirement would be that both of you are looking for the same thing. You are both normal people and are attracted to each other, but are not interested in anything heavy right now. You agree that having sex occasionally would not be demeaning, illegal or downright evil, so you give it a try. You enjoy it, and decide to do it when possible. Since you’re both having fun, ladies, offer to split any bills, and gentlemen, don’t feel bad about letting her do so. It’s a relationship of equals. And don’t take it personally if he or she has to leave right after. You could bring him/her along to laid-back social events (not to your sister’s wedding) but still, it’s best to find out if it works for you or not. There’s a delicious feeling that you are each others little secret, so maybe showing each other off (especially if either of you is in a relationship) might not be a good idea. It would help if you liked your fuck buddy, but don’t fall in love. Have fun between the sheets. You don’t have to talk about your deep dark secrets, unless one asks. You might be surprised with what you may have in common. Both of you have the option to call, ask for it, initiate it when you feel like it, and it is understood that you’re willing to make some time for each other– don’t fink out by faking a headache or a meeting for the nth time. Essential rule to bear in mind so you don’t get all worked up: Fuck buddy relationships have a life span, and don’t be in denial when the romp has run its course. Be gracious, say thank you and goodluck– and keep your eye peeled for the next candidate.
Amidst all the junk, G <3